The point is, you’re not totally in it yet but you think you want to be…
I’d looked at the set lists from the past few shows and I couldn’t help but feel a little slighted seeing that other crowds heard some of my favorites and deducing that I wouldn’t. As if I’m some sort of special fan. Like THE fan to whom should be given a perfect show-according to her. I had to remind myself that I’ll get what I need. I’ve always gone into shows believing that there is music waiting to move me, teach me, remind me… songs to make me FEEL something. Tonight’s show proved that to be %110 true* Some songs toyed with my brain, some tugged at my heartstrings, some put a lump in my throat, some moved my feet. This show also strengthened my appreciation for the in-betweens- the wrapping up of one song and the hinting at the next, the playful, musical banter that sometimes feels like a chat or a discussion or maybe even a disagreement. I found myself enjoying those transitional moments immensely. But then, I love the hold your breath moment when you’re just walking into a bustling room and you’re sizing up the crowd and you lock eyes with someone and you exchange smiles with another someone and your body shifts it’s rhythm and you’re nudged toward memory or feeling and you hold hands with the joy or desire or pain or the void you find there. You’re not really in it yet but you think you want to be. You’re dipping your toes into the water. You’re deciding how deep to go. I’m usually caught up in the middles-the bigness of them. Or sometimes the smallness of them. The middles get a lot of attention. And they absolutely deserve it. Tonight, though… tonight belonged to the in-between moments. I found so much there… Character. Punctuation. Texture. Challenge. Resolution. Brilliance. Tonight gifted me with what I needed- right down to the rain delay which gave us an early pause and a long second set. Good show. Good good show.
*110% used to simply poke at my accountant husband
